Still stopped up with sinus junk, ugh. I am so happy with how I did with my food today, woot!

breakfast- eggs, green peas, onions and a protein shake
lunch- tuna, 1/2c brown rice, green beans & it was good!
snack- naners
dinner- bowl of gluten-free cereal, choco almond milk, and blueberries

I’ve had cereal for dinner the last 2 nights, lol. So good. And I drank 3 liters of water! Gonna stick with 1500 cals for now, especially since I’m not really doing any exercise. Again, my main goal is to get my portions right and hopefully lose weight as I heal my body and immune system. I walked on the treadmill, then did about 10 minutes on the exercise bike. Atleast I’m doing a little something!

Katie has been on my last NERVES alllllll daaaaaay toooooooday. Really need to see about putting her into a pre-k or something, she seriously needs the interaction with others and I’m honestly no good with entertaining her. I worked on my college paper today, about the French, American, and Latin American Revolutions. Almost done with it!!!

Welllllllll, that’s about it for tonight. We watched ONE TREE HILL last night, and FRINGE the night before, they were both so good. Thinking about watching the latest Biggest Loser… hmm… or working on my tumblr or this site. Decisions, decisions! This week went by fast.

It was another beautiful day outside.

I don’t have much to say…… don’t want to bore you with the same ole. College work, took a shower, fiddled online, and we went to the store this evening. I have been going back and forth on what to do about my food menu and intake. I don’t know what is best for my body anymore. I have all these potential concepts in my head, but I don’t know which one would work best?! I got a few food items at the store, and am going to count calories again. I wanted to do a juice fast, but I don’t want to be that strict with myself. See? I keep changing my mind.

Here’s what I plan to “try” to eat. I’m looking for something that’s gonna agree with my messed up body and help me lose some weight. I KNOW I can lose weight, because I lost it with the juice fast, and even when I was just eating fruit/rice/veggies. Foods: fruits, veggies, gluten free cereal, dark chocolate almond milk, eggs, tuna, protein powder for shakes. That’s all I got so far. HAVE to keep my portions under control if I want to even think about getting somewhere with my weight and health.

Anyway… I’m kindof just generally irritated tonight. Might watch last week’s One Tree Hill! Goodnight.

Yea, so, I got pretty upset last night about my whole health situation. I want to thank all my online friends who showed me support! Means a lot. SOMETHING that I’m taking vitamin/herbal wise is working, I feel more at peace and feel like I’m going in the right direction. IN FACT, I ordered the immune system supplements from my online holistic Doctor today. Once I get those, I can take different supplements to determine where to go from there! Well, Brad and I stayed up until 2AM, lol. Of course got up at 6AM this morning. Only time i’ve felt sleepy today was when I was reading, but I usually get bored/sleepy with reading anyway.

I’m gonna go for the juice “cleanse” AND I MEAN IT THIS TIME. Maybe not a 100% juice, if I get too bad off/hungry/etc, then I could have some fruits, or if I’m craving something warm, maybe warm almond milk, or canned veggies. I know the vitamins/herbs I’m taking will benefit me MUCH MUCH MORE if my intestines weren’t packed with so much food. I know that for a FACT. The juice will help my sinus infection go away, clean out my digestive tract, help the inflammation pain in my knee, and so I need to do it.

It was sooooo pretty outside today. I wasted my morning on my Tumblr layout, lol. It was so much fun, and I just… couldn’t… pull myself away! I fed Katie lunch, put her down for nap, then straight away started to work on my college discussion, then went into reading a chapter for this week’s assignments. Katie got back up, ate, watched cartoons, while I finished reading. Brad came home, we ate dinner, watched some dumb people on YouTube, then watched FRINGE! Finally caught up before the new episode. Haha… Brad used the new Spongebob bubble bath for Katie tonight and it’s the first time she’s ever had lots of bubbles in the bath. SHE FREAKED OUT.. literally screamed in horror when Brad tried to put a bubble beard on her. We think she related it to when we lived in AL & it snowed, we all went outside and Katie was roaming around in her bundled up outfit in the cold, cold, snow and apparently that is what she relates it to because she was calling the bubbles “snowman” and saying “COLD! COLD!” so yeah. She did not enjoy them one bit, so Brad had to wash them down the drain. Ah well, just keep trying to tell her that it’s okay, nothing to be scared of, and keep trying to introduce them to her.

So glad that I can tell a diff with the stuff I’ve been taking. YAY VITAMINS AND HERBS! They are miracle healers. I’m much more tolerant of 3 1/2 year old behavior, my interests are “waking up” again, i don’t feel as tense, and just yay!

Venting and crying hysterically to Brad, plus many other times crying alone yesterday seemed to lift weight off my shoulder as well. My emotions are starting to “stir” again too! For a long time, even tho I wanted to “feel” emotional, I just felt blank. No crying over something sappy or emotional, unless it was something that hit me just right. I love a good cry, actually. When I changed my life, I would actually spend time alone, letting out my emotions in a happy-thankful way… that really helped me change in an AWESOME WAY. I intend to get back to that.

I am thankful, even through all of this. I know I will CONQUER all of this and get back to the happy, lean person I DESERVE TO BEEEEEE! :]