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I think Brad and I are gonna go to the mall this weekend! :grinny: If we do I’ll go and get my eyebrows done because boy do they need it!!! I remember when Brad first got his truck that he had his wreck in - we would go to the mall almost EVERY weekend. Now? We only got MAYBE once a month, MAYBE. He’s not too keen on driving long distances hardly ever. I hope he can shake that and we can go back to the way It was. I liked going out like that every weekend instead of just going to the grocery store every weekend.

So tonight we’re gonna babysit Brad’s 3 younger sisters while Brad’s Mom & Stepdad go to some celebration for Brad’s Stepdad. I cannot believe Saturday will be the 1st of September! Before you know it, the holidays will be coming up and whenever those come around, It always goes by fast. Then comes New Years and 2008?!?!? 2008. Wow. I remember everyone talking about the big scare about going into 2000. Almost 8 years have went by.. just seems impossible!

One thing I love about my Mom.. she is the person I call whenever something is pissing me off or someone. In fact I think as soon as I get a few things done, think I’m gonna call her and rant about this and that :grinny: :grinny: :grinny: I love my Mom. Have a great day!!!!

I couldn’t stop crying this morning. Thinking about how everything used to be, living back home with Mom - the memories in that house. THE MEMORIES WITH MY FRIENDS, OMG! I truly and really have been so isolated these past few years that I am so anxious around people these days. I used to be this really, really, silly, goofy full of spunk person but since I haven’t had any friend interaction in such a long time my sense of humor is different than It used to be. I’ve always been pretty mature for my age and now I think It’s even moreso. I miss how me and my best friend Allen would just be each other’s company for the whole entire summer day. Now I don’t even get to see him anymore. :blink: Brad is my best friend but the thing is all he wants to do when he gets home is get a shower and play his computer game. :blank: I’ve tried talking him into doing things, he says right now It’s too hot to go outside and do stuff, which, I agree. I got him to go to the store with me the other day to just look around. It’s different though.. he’s my husband, yenno? I really need a close girl friend.

I was also thinking about Mom. How she raised me as her own. Took me in and did so much for me. I think about how once Brad and I have a baby.. she probably won’t be here to be in the delivery room with us. I would want her there, too because she means the WORLD to me. I want her close so she can see our baby. And thinking about her not just made me cry even more this morning. I know my Mom and I didn’t get along for quite a long time but once we got on good terms (which, we still are) It’s been awesome and I just miss her now that she lives 4-5 hours away. Can’t just go over on the weekend anytime we want. Mom really, really is my angel. Her and my Grandpa (RIP Gpa) both, I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for their big hearts.