This whole trying to conceive thing is so draining. Espically when I HOPE HOPE HOPE for it to happen and then each time It doesn’t. It’s now been over a year. Coming up close to being a year since I started my medicine. I go back to the Doctor October 30th so maybe she can figure something else out. I dunno.. sometimes I just want to throw the towel in and say forget it but then again I try to hang on to hope.
In other bad news, yesterday I got a message on Myspace from a girl I know from High School asking If I had heard about my best friend Krista’s daughter. I told her no? Last time I saw Krista and her son + daughter was when Mom moved away in August. Apparently, Anna (her daughter) was taking a nap, vomited and choked to death.. 🙁 I feel so heavy hearted for her. Anna was a beauuuuutiful little baby. Had the cutest little face. Gosh and Krista was big time crazy about her kids so I can’t even imagine how she is feeling right now. I want to call her but I am no good with words when It comes to situations like these. I might attempt even just to show her I care and that I’m there for her even though I just won’t know what to say. I was talking to Mom about it and Mom lost a son – Jimmy when he was only 19 hours old and she said that there isn’t a day that goes by that she doesn’t think of him.
I just hope Krista can make it through okay.
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This may sound too personal so you can completely ignore it (or even edit it out) but have you had a history of “not quite right” menstrual cycles? It could possibly be the reason as to why you’re having trouble now. What meds are you on? Are you using ovulation testing kits so you know when the egg drops?
I’m very sorry to hear that you’re having trouble with this and I hope the doctor can give you all of the help in the world towards your future bundle of joy.
I’m also very sorry to hear about your friends baby. I hope Krista is able to make it through. Parents outliving their children is such an emotional strain it’s unreal. My wishes to her and her family.
And good luck for you.
Oh it’s okay to ask Krissy!
Yeah, I do have regular cycles, I keep track of whether I ovulate or not by using a basal body thermometer to take my temp each morning and I record it. I’ve had a few months where I haven’t ovulated. I’m taking Metformin 500mg twice a day. I have signs of PCOS but the Doc told me I don’t “have” it.. yet. Last year when I had my exam she said my ovaries were enlarged but that’s all I know. So I dunno, hopefully we’ll get more answers.
I wish you the best of luck with trying to conceive. And I am so so sorry to hear about your friend’s loss. I can’t even imagine what I would do if I lost my child. =(
Aww man, I can’t tell you how many people I know with PCOS and I can say it’s a horrible thing to have to deal with. I’m so sorry. I hope that you’re finally able to get the baby you’ve been hoping for. I’ll donate my eggs if you get desperate 🙂