Katie and I have not had a good relationship lately. Between my hormonal imbalance and not being able to deal with stress as well, It’s also stressing her out and therefore we are not in harmony with one another either. She’s really acting out and gets very upset very easily. I’m trying my best to change things to help the both of us and I know If I keep being persistant both our stress levels will go down. It was another GORGEOUS day so after relaxing a bit this morning I decided to go for a 30 minute walk outside with Katie since I haven’t been outside walking in a while! It was so nice and VERY breezy!

Katie is too big for her stroller now! I’d really love to buy a jogger stroller so once I get my energy back I’d be able to actually JOG with her but this little bitty stroller is not runner friendly! In the past I would set out for walks and only intend on walking for 30 minutes… maybe an hour and then wind up walking 2 hours! Today I walked 15 minutes one way and 15 minutes back making sure It was only 30 minutes.


WOW. It was just the other day It seemed like not ONE leaf had fallen onto the ground and then BOOM… the leaves really started falling all of a sudden! After Katie and I got back from our walk, we sat out in the yard and crumbled the fallen, dead leaves. I love to do that. Just sit and play with the leaves. Katie does too!

That was our lovely stroll! I’m off to call Mom then get a snack before starting dinner!

The weather is just downright GORGEOUS! Seeeeeeeeeee?

Today has consisted of lots of WORK. Katie woke up wet this morning so I had to give her a quick bath before her breakfast then while she played I started my online worrrrrk. I got DONE too, woot! I got dressed and put Katie in her highchair to watch some cartoons while I did a ~17 minute workout on the exercise bike. I had a little snack before and after the workout to try to keep me fueled! It worked. I got a shower then fed and put Katie down for nap! Everything happened a bit later today so I had a very late umm… lunch? More like lunch-afternoon-meal.

OH, we watched last weeks One Tree Hill episode last night and It was soo good! I’m SUPER STOKED about watching last nights Biggest Loser episode tonight, squeee!!! I don’t have too much on the agenda for this evening except the usual. I really want to get the message out wherever I can about healthy living! It’s so important and as I’ve went through ALL THIS – from the time I started “living healthy” then making all the mistakes I’ve made and now to taking steps to fix those and TRULY be living healthy.. I have realized just how much I LOVE everything to do with healthy living! I realize that my body is so important and that I must take great care of everything I eat and everything I do.

What healthy choices have you made today? We all have to start small. I started out in the beginning of my journey with cutting out certain things completely and then as time went on I also would switch to healthier options in different areas of my daily menu. It’s one choice, one day at a time. They TRULY do add up to big changes and differences If we stick to the healthy living. Hope everyone has a great and HEALTHY day! God loves you!

I’m pretty certain I have figured out what’s been up with my lip and tongue. My upper lip sometimes feels “swollen” and my tongue has been feeling like I sipped a scolding hot beverage… plus I can’t taste properly and sometimes I have a metallic taste in my mouth. I searched online and turns out it’s burning tongue syndrome. Guess what the probable cause is? YUP…. hormonal imbalance! I’m also thinking what’s mainly been aggitating this situation has been the antiseptic mouthwash I use every day. Yeah, I can see how my already messed up tongue + BURNING mouthwash can certainly make it worse! Also read spicy, hot foods and cinnamon aggitate this. Guess what I ate not long before reading the article? A hot bowl of oatmeal WITH cinnamon. D’oh. Yes, my tongue did burn afterwards and It still does a little right now. I feel certain that If I cut out the mouthwash and lessen my hot food and intake of cinnamon then I will see good results as my hormones attempt to get back in place. It’s all a waiting process.

MY GOODNESS. It was quite COLD last night so I shut our bedroom window and had to put on my thermal PJ’s! We also slept in this morning too, woot woot. I got up and stayed in my PJ’s for quite some time before getting dressed for exercise. Brad left around 12:45PM to go renew his driver’s license then go work on our car again with our church friend at his house. I’ve gotta go to a church meeting this evening and then tonight after Katie’s in bed we’ll watch last week’s episode of One Tree HILL since I forgot about it! We finally watched new episodes of BONES and FRINGE! Awesomesauce!!!!!! Also CANNOT WAIT to see the new episode of The Biggest Loser tomorrow night since they FINALLY started posting the new episodes online the next DAY instead of a week later!

I’m hoping to hear more news about Mom today.

I’m gonna keep this short tonight… I’m pretty tired! We all were tired this morning seeing as we all slept later than usual which was awesome!!!!!! It’s feel SO LOVELY outside! It was in the 60’s with a NICE breeze! Brad left this morning to go start working on the car with a church friend at his house. Before he left, I went for my short run outside and with a sweater on! It was a pretty good run but I had to stop and walk part of the way back since my lungs aren’t used to that cool of air outside. I got back and took a shower then Brad left. I got my hair fixed then called a church friend to take me to run errands!

Today I…
went to the bank
paid our eletric bill
went grocery shopping
Not just ANY grocery shopping… I GOT TO ALL BY MYSELF! Our church friend had Katie in her buggy just strollin around the store while I got our usual. It was greaaaaaaaat. We came back to the house and she helped me unload the groceries then was on her way! I fed Katie then put her down for a nap.
This evening I…
did a load of laundry
chopped up fruits/veggies
got our chicken ready for this week
downloaded my online work
TA-DA! I was so tired espically after all that so I went to lay down at 5PM and didn’t get up till 6:30PM! Katie was still asleep and Brad came home not long after that. Katie got up a bit later and I fed her and we’ve been hanging out. Katie’s been having tummy issues so she’s on the potty but can’t seem to go and It’s getting late so I’m about to put her to bed.

Oh.. they thought Mom would get to come home from the hospital today but did more tests to find out her colon is bleeding so guess we’ll see what happens next! Just gotta pray. Katie’s going to bed then I’m getting dessert and we’re gonna study some scripture. Ooh I love these cool days and nights.

I am sooooooooo tired and hungry! We’ve ran out of bread! (GASP) so for heavy carbs I’ve had to rely on OATS. They are oh-so-good. Sundays always throw my body off since It’s the only morning I get up EXTRA early and my “usual” schedule is thrown off as far as sleeping and eating so I’ve been struggling to keep my tummy happy this evening but luckily, dinner is in the oven!

I love going to church and I have really needed it lately with all the roller coaster that has been going on in my life. The talks were wonderful and I really need the interaction with other members. That alone helps me heaps!! We came home and this evening I ate snacks and took a nap but woke up starving! OH, also FINALLY got to talk to my Mom in the hospital!!!!!!! She’s doing lots better and may even get to come home tomorrow… woohoo! That is such a relief off my mind. I love her so.

I’m slowly working one day at a time to reclaim the health and happiness I had. I will get there. I believe it and know it with all my heart – just have to be patient and take care of my body in the way I should. I got a blessing today from Brad and our Branch President. Brad had asked me several times over the past few months If I wanted one for all the mess that has been going on with my health and body and I would always say no but I am READY now. I’m ready to get back in action!!!!!! I love my Heavenly Father. I love my husband and daughter and I am going to work to be a good Saint and to be happy!

Well, must check on dinner! Katie’s going to bed soon then we’re eating and watching new episodes of BONES and FRINGE! I’m soooooooo excited! Also, dessert? TOTALLY CAN’T WAIT. Greek yogurt, flaxseed and blueberries that I’m gonna put in the freezer for just a little while… oh yes It will be delicious. NOMNOM. Have a great night! I look forward to this week and what It may have in store for us!

Let it be known that CHARITY NEVER FAILETH!! There is so much goodness that comes with charity and love. The church has shown me that in so many ways.

Today was busy but I got everything done and did wind up going to the church meeting. I cleaned house this morning then after putting Katie down for an early nap, I started our dinner for late tonight then fixed my lunch. Eventually ate snacks, got ready, woke Katie up, gave her a bath then fed her while waiting for my friend to arrive to take me to the church. Here’s Katie playing in the chair while waiting for my friend.

I had been contemplating on whether or not to go but was led by that Spirit that cried out — yes, I needed to go and I’m surely glad I did for the talks did touch my heart to soften and I’m thankful for that. Katie got to go play with the other kids while I watched the conference on the TV in the chapel and beforehand, we got to eat so I ate a little chicken, little potato salad and a good helping of salad while Katie got a good bit of chicken and potato salad. I know I struggle with my own life, mind and thoughts that lately have been trying to lead me astray.. away from meetings when months ago I was ready and willing to go to these meetings at the drop of a hat. Where is that willingness now? I’ve gotta dig into my heart, set my emotions, hormones and spirituality straight once and for all and be the Saint that I know I can be.

I’m waiting on my love to get home! He worked an hour overtime tonight and so when he gets home, we’ll eat together! We didn’t get to watch any shows last night since a church friend stopped by but If tonight goes as planned then we’ll try to atleast watch The Office tonight and If not, there’s always tomorrow! I’m so thankful for Heavenly Father and my life. My handsome husband and our beautiful, precious daughter. I’m gonna strive to show as much to them as I can.

I didn’t get anymore information today about Mom except that my Aunt went to see her and their doing tests. I asked how she was doing and my Aunt said she looks better than she did. I hope they start to figure out what’s going on with her. I know she has had so many healthy related problems for a long, long time now. Just gotta continue to pray!

Today…
– did 2 loads of laundry
– researched more on hormonal imbalance
– took a nice nap
– actually felt pretty decent!!!!!!!!!!
– brad ordered our cars NEW TRANSMISSION!

Tonight I “attempted” to make a tuna veggie casserole. Eh… I put too much water into it but It’s VERY healthy! I chopped fresh veggies into it and even made homemade crispy onions to go on top. To give my bowl a kick, I added some pickles! My tummy actually feels a little satisfied?!?! WOOT.

I’m so excited for Brad to get home to try my interesting casserole, lol.. and also NEW. SHOWS! HOLY COW! New eppys of… THE OFFICE, BONES, FRINGE! Squeeeeeeeeee. Oh oh another thing I am jumping for joy over is the TEMPS! It was actually pretty cool outside last night and supposed to be that way again tonight and tomorrow It’s going to be 89 then MONDAY It’s only going to be I think 74?!?! I cannot WAAAAIT!

*happy dance*

Life can be so hard and harsh at times, don’t you think? I got a text this morning from my Aunt saying that my Mom had passed out during a stress test and was in the hospital. She said she would keep me updated and was going to visit Mom this evening so I’m trying to wait patiently to hear from her. I’m so concerned for my Mom because not long ago she told me that her blood pressure has been EXTREMELY high… like stroke/heart attack high and that she has had to take double the dose of her blood pressure pill because she would get such a bad headache. This REALLY scares me because she already has so many health problems on top of all this. Please pray for her. I’ve been crying all evening because I can’t be there with her and the thought of losing her is such a heavy thought for me. I love her so much and she raised me, her granddaughter, as her own and I am so thankful to have her and to think of not being able to talk to her when I need someone to call when I want to vent or just to hear her voice. I didn’t take a nap this afternoon since I’ve had my Mom on my mind and I’m getting really tired now.

I wanted to talk about all the trials I’ve been through lately since The Gospel has taught me so much about facing adversity, trials, sickness, struggles — whatever It may be.
house issues. ok so this house was a blessing for us price wise but i just don’t feel like it’s home or that we belong here! i guess it also has to do with the fact that since we’ve been here everything in our life has slowly fallen apart. the floors are unbalanced since it’s not on a firm foundation.. it’s a very old house. next we have our “buddies”… there’s the pantry bugs. the big rat. the little grey mouse. lots of ANTS. let’s not forget the WASPS. i don’t want to have to constantly fight these pests! i’m hoping we can find something in the near future. VERY near future.
car issues. it all started when we decided to trade in our truck. BAD IDEA. our truck was a) paid for and b) working! so why ruin that right?!?! well, we wanted something better on gas. enter the car trade catastrophe. we found the decked, pimped out maxima that i fell in love with but it was “too” decked out and had many problems. traded it in for the blazer. blazer was GREAT until it started overheating. perfect! went to trade in the blazer and get money back and was RIPPED OFF. bought our current car from a guy from church but we were made aware that it most of the time wouldn’t go into reverse so we knew the transmission was on the “brink” but we took it because we were desperate since we were carless! well guess what. not even a week after we get it, the transmission goes completely out! we’ve had to get rides to everywhere of course and that’s not always easy and we don’t like always asking for help. we took out a loan and “should” be getting our almost-new transmission in about a week. yea… we should of kept the truck. i really miss it actually.
hormonal issues. i cannot believe after all my hard work in 2009 to lose weight that i’ve come to this but i messed myself up when i didn’t eat enough, exercised too much and didn’t get the right nutrients. i’ve completely worn my body out. i’ve gained around 15 pounds, which really puts a needle to my heart but it’s ok! i just want to be able to feel truly “full”, have my energy back to full speed and get back on track so THEN i can start to lose weight again. i’ve got to let my body heal so i’ve been doing good EXCEPT i still haven’t been eating enough for my body to heal and restore. i think that’s why ive been feeling so badly so here’s the plan.
– take multi-vitamin daily
– take birth control daily
– eat CLEAN
– exercise very limited
– eat 1900-2000 calories NO LESS.
– drink plenty of water
– get plenty of rest
– try to remain as stress free as possible

I’m a VERY consistent person so I know If I just KEEP doing these things then I will start to feel great as and probably sooner than I think! My problem has been that my mind has still been on WEIGHT LOSS when right now my body is saying NO NO NO.. and holding onto all that extra because I haven’t been getting all that I need whether it be in calories or nutrients but It’s time to change that once and for all. I’m so ready for this really bad “phase” to be over with. The last 4-5 months have been pretty much some of the toughest times I’ve ever been through and I am MORE THAN ready to be truly happy and uplifted again. It seems like I would get one part of the “healthy” formula right but still wouldn’t get the rest right. For example: I would eat enough fats but not enough calories in general or I would eat enough carbs but still exercise more than my energy allowed but I am GOING to get it right this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m just wondering how long it’ll take my body to get back on track to where I can feel myself again? I guess we’ll see.

I believe in myself and I believe in Heavenly Father. I know I can face each issue, trial and struggle with faith and confidence that everything will be OK! I’ve got some serious thinking to do about life and I think we all need to really think about our life and how we can be happy! We all deserve it and we all deserve to be healthy too! Take that step towards a healthier life… I know I am!!!

edit: Woops…… 23rd is the first day of Fall, lol. Ah well!!!

HAPPY 1ST DAY OF FALL !!!!!!!!

Now If only our weather would cooperate to MATCH the fall temps! Today we got up in the 90’s and I think the earliest “break” from the heat we’re gonna see is Saturday I believe. I can’t wait for little bit cooler days! I DON’T like COLD COLD but I do like the cool, low humidity days of Fall! I do not look forward to Winter at all… nuh uh!!

I’ve had a very average day. Today was of course my online work day so I got up this morning and after breakfast, I got Katie up and let her play while I started the work. She’s been having trouble with constipation lately but she eventually went on the potty. I let her play in her highchair while I did a 20 minute kettlebell workout and wow, that really got me sweating! Afterwards, I set her up with a movie then got a shower and started to fix my lunch then eventually fed her and put her down for her nap. After lunch It was back to the work! I took a nap from 3:30PM-4:30PM but dozed in and out till almost 5PM before I finally got up to fix a snack then fix my hair. Later this evening I had this lovely….

I’ve never tried this flavor but I did like it! I like the larabars in general. More work work work! Eventually fixed dinner for both us and Katie then put her to bed. I had just a tiny bit more work to finish and so I got that done and now I just finished my dinner. Brad got home not long ago so we’re just gonna hang out for the rest of the evening till bed time!

These last several months have been soo rough. Between car troubles, hormone troubles, relationship troubles, money troubles, house troubles… I’m ready for some REALLY good times and I know their ahead. I KNOW it. I believe in Heavenly Father and will hold to the good things in this life no matter what hardships and difficulties come my way. Here’s to happiness!

This morning two ladies from church were supposed to stop by for a visit but then one of them text me back and said they weren’t gonna get to come so! I just hung out with Katie and Brad eventually got up too. I did my workout around 12:30pm and another lady we knew from church was coming by at 2PM so take us to run errands! So nice of her!!!!!!! I had to hurry though to get my workout, shower and then make a quick lunch so I did all that and was eating the rest of my lunch when she arrived. We got all our errands done and she headed out! I had a busy, busy, busy evening. I got Katie’s food prepared for the week, cooked Brad’s chicken for the week then eventually we watched the SEASON PREMIERE of The Biggest Loser online, WOOT. Katie did not get a nap today and was SUPER DUPER tired by the time 7PM rolled around so Brad put her to bed about an hour early. She’s usually in bed by 8:30 but tonight It was a little after 7:30PM so hopefully she’ll get some good rest tonight.

I’d read about people making burgers out of BEANS so Brad and I wanted to give it a try! We had fun mushing up our beans and veggies, lol. Here they are getting ready to be eaten!

YUM YUM. I’m about to eat dessert and relax before it’s time to go to bed!