HAPPY HALLOWEEN
Hope everyone’s had a great one! We didn’t do anything. Got up and went to church, came home, took a long nap and just hung out. Katie just went to bed and we’re eating dinner. We’ll probably watch something online then I’m going to bed.

Hope your Halloween has been better than mine!

“Don’t wake up and believe them… visions when you’re sleeping, don’t wake up and believe them – you’re looking at the ghost of me!!!!! la da da daaaaa” <3 Daughtry!

OK so what did I do today? Not that my days are all that eventful ever but here goes. I got up and was automatically a POPSICLE when I got out of bed considering It was like 30-somethin outside and almost as cold INSIDE as it was OUTSIDE. Sucks…. I got up and put on another layer of clothes. I had 2 LAYERS of socks and STILL my feet were frozen. DO NOT LIKE COLD. After the usual morning routine, I started to clean house. Eventually, my church friend came to get me at 2PM so I could go to our church’s Fall Festival booth and so we just sat and talked a bit. Atleast I got out of the house for a few hours… better than nothin. We didn’t get back till 5PM and then I put Katie down for a nap, ate an egg sandwich then got a shower. I baked some “pumpkin cake puff chocolate cookies” hahaha – all they are is canned pumpkin mixed with cake mix then I put a dark chocolate kiss on top and they turned out… very good but not that pretty, lol. Ah well. I made them for our church’s potluck tomorrow. Hope people like them as much as I did. I said I wasn’t going to eat sugar but I had to try them!

Katie’s been whiney all day and I know my grumpy mood doesn’t help. I’m gonna cook dinner, put Katie to bed and relax then go to bed early again. Gotta get up early for church in the morning and be prepared to be Mrs. Popsicle again. Brad said he hopes we can do something fun together this weekend…. yea I wish but I have no idea what that would be. *shrug* I hate feeling this way !!!!!!!!!!

I watched an episode of Obsessed last night and then I was in bed by 10:30PM last night!!! I laid down and fell asleep for a short amount of time then Brad came home and told me goodnight. It was freezing last night and been freezing in this house all day… fun! Plus I have a slight headache… more fun! Speaking of FUN – I’m in need of some REAL baby-free fun. What would that be? Good question. For the most part of today I’ve been carrying around my mp3 player listening to music in hopes that It would lift my spirits since music usually does that but I dunno. I brisk walked on the treadmill for almost 50 minutes this morning and that definetly warmed me up for a bit until I got off and then the sweat made me colder — haha. After my shower while Katie watched Spongebob I took a 30 minute nap and got warm. Katie went down for her nap after while and I laid down for another nap later this afternoon. I’ve been attempting to get my creativeness going again… want to work on a new layout for this site!!! I’ve got the top image done but just couldn’t get motivated to do anymore than that, ugh.

Waiting for the chicken to thaw out so I can cook supper, put Katie to bed then relax and go to bed early again. Tomorrow Katie and I are supposed to go help with the Fall Festival from 2-4PM so that should be interesting and probably COLD.

I wish I could go to sleep for a week.

I am exhausted. Not surprising though!

I don’t really have much to say tonight…
I laid around a lot today and took 2 “small” naps.
Gonna make bean burgers tonight.
Did a Wii Active [extra workouts] workout this morning.
Feeling pretty hungry.
This post is random.
I don’t know when I’ll ever feel normal again?
I’m so unmotivated and not interested in anything.
I attempted to watch an old episode of Buffy and turned it off because I couldn’t hold interest.
Just want to sleep and wake up feeling better.
My back hurts and It’s supposed to be in the 30’s tonight… ugh.

This concludes my random post… off to make a snack and check on dinner.

Sitting here listening to INCUBUS!!!!!!!! How I do love BRANDON BOYD INDEED! Today has been a lot better than yesterday that’s for sure! I’ve decided that with my body in the condition it’s in, it’s important for me to look at all aspects of my daily living to see how I can HELP myself get better! I have PCOS and so I can kindof guess that right now with my hormones all whacky that my blood sugar is having trouble staying stable SO here is my daily living plan to STICK WITH until I FEEL BETTER:
– take a multi-vitamin, B vitamin and omega-3 pill every morning
– NO FRUITS (just until my hormones settle since I’m having all this trouble with my blood sugar)
– NO ICE CREAM yea. that has sugar too, hah.
– as little of sugar as possible
– LOW GI veggies eat plenty of these veggies
– GET A REGULAR SLEEP SCHEDULE and get MORE sleep really gotta get this set in stone!

I usually eat quite a BIT of fruit DAILY and I think thats going to make a big diff for me and all this mess. Here’s some guide lines I read online about adrenal fatigue:
– eat an early breakfast before 10AM i eat at 9:30AM!
– eat small frequent meals i do this but i’m tryin to make the meals more calorie even
– Combine fat, protein and whole grains at every meal and snack gonna strive to do this too
– Avoid fruits and juices in the morning whoops. I ALWAYS have apple slices with my breakfast but I didn’t this morning!!! also had been drinking the Trop50 but also didn’t this morning.

I talked about eating a lot of fruit throughout my day… here’s what I would usually eat in fruit terms daily:
– few grapes and/or honeydew in the morning with my pills
– apple slices with breakfast
– bit of banana with my morning snack
– whole peach with lunch
– fruit with snacks in the afternoon
So as you can see I had fruit all throughout my day and from what I can put together my body is probably REALLY oversensative to sugar right now with the hormonal imbalance so even tho fruit has good sugars – it’s still sugar and right now I don’t want anything more messed up than it is, haha. I made it the whole day today without any of the usual “sugar” so WOOT! I look forward to keeping at it and seeing how I feel and I KNOW that will help! SLEEP is another big one!

Oh man oh man! I really ROCKED it this morning on the exercise bike! I told myself I would get on it and just have FUN so I started at a real steady, easy pace and I wanted to go for 45 minutes and I DID! I also had speed-ups every now and then and WOWIE, It was awesome!!!!!!!! The rest of today has been finishing online work – and I still have a bit more to do and finish! Got a load of laundry folded and put away anddd that took up my day! Brad came home from work not long ago to get dressed to go help with his works haunted house (like he did last night) and so I hope he has fun! I’m about to post this, get my dinner warmed up, finish online work then WATCH THIS WEEKS BIGGEST LOSER!!!!!!! Brad’s gonna miss it but he’ll just have to watch it on his own since I want to watch it tonight! WOOT WOOT, can’t wait!

Have a great evening! Thankful, grateful and blessed for everything Heavenly Father has given me!!!

I’m pretty sure I have adrenal fatigue and It seems all the research I’ve done says It’s going to take a while to fix it but It can be done naturally. I have to watch closely with what I eat and when I eat and make sure to get plenty of SLEEP. Speaking of – I did not sleep well last night. I woke up atleast 3-4 times tossing and turning. I took 2 short “naps” today and I feel alright right now but meh.

Today has consisted of…
– wii active fun workout this morning
– little naps & laying around
– very WINDY day with rain
– too much food. sigh…

Brad left at 6PM to go help with the haunted house his work set up so yeah. He might not be home till around 11PM or so – maybe earlier but I’m going to bed at 11-11:30PM no matter what because my body depends on sleep right now and I want to get better ASAP. I feel pretty irritable and grumpy tonight. I think I’m gonna eat my dinner, watch something on Netflix then get some sleep… *sigh*

We got up bright and early this morning – espically for us on a Monday morning! We usually sleep in till after 9AM on Monday’s (or atleast I do.. someone else usually gets to sleep longer.. ahem) but yeah, we got up at 7AM this morning to get breakfast then head out the door for my gyno appointment! I got my IUD placed, YAY! My gyno is really concerned about my extreme fatigue and she did a blood test back in July where she found out my estrogen and progesterone are a bit low but the only thing she didn’t test was my testosterone so we talked about the fatigue then she gave me an order to go to the building another street over to get the blood drawn so we did that then headed home! Oh and she said to give my body time to get all the birth control pills out of my system and see how I feel then. If I still have the major fatigue then she suggested I get my regular Doc to look into it.
Once home, I researched a few things online then got my cellphone and headed out for a walk to call my Mom and tell her about our day so far and what my gyno had said. It was REALLY windy outside but felt awesome!!! I walked for about an hour then when I got back we loaded up to head out again! First up was the hair place because I was in desperate need of an eyebrow waxing! Brad dropped me off there and he went to pay a bill then came back to wait till I was done. Check! Next up was the store to buy our usual weekly groceries. Katie was getting quiiiiiite cranky since she was hungry and tired but we got everything then headed home again! Katie eventually went down for nap and I was SO EXHAUSTED. I tried quickly to make myself a lunch then Brad and I went to take a looong nap too! Except everything wakes me up now, grrr. I woke up atleast 3-4 times while we were laying down. One time to pee, another time coz something fell then another time cause I heard my phone go off from someone sending me a text and then when I did wake up It took me a while to get back to sleep. It’s so annoying. I have GOT to get a better sleep schedule. Not to mention the IUD placement has given me… CRAMPS! I haven’t had cramps since last year? Since my hormone levels dropped then my period went missing for a long time and then with the BCP even when It did give me my cycle back I haven’t gotten cramps but boy I have since I got the IUD in but It’s worth it!

We’re just hanging out right now… gotta download my online work to get it ready for this week then put Katie to bed and start our dinner of – TURKEY BURGERS!!! Probably gonna RELAX as much as possible and maybe watch a movie or somethin?? Yup! Deffo gonna see about going to bed earlier tonight since I need to get as much sleep as possible. I wouldn’t know how to act If I went to sleep and woke up refreshed and rejuvenated but I’m waiting for that day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thankful, grateful and blessed for my life!

Today’s meetings at church focused on one thing mostly… SERVICE! This scripture was brought up I think twice at different times.

“And behold, I tell you these things that ye may learn wisdom; that ye may learn that when ye are in the service of your fellow beings ye are only in the service of your God.” ~ Mosiah 2:17
It’s true. When we serve others, we are serving our Heavenly Father and doing as HE would do and how he would have US to do as well. When we help others and help them to bare their own burdens and problems then our own problems don’t seem so overwhelming and big because we’re centering our focus on helping our brethren and sisters. Let us reach out, love and help one another because our hearts will swell with charity and we will feel a different kind of great happiness through doing that serving for our fellow people. The talks were very moving and helped me to realize that I need to strive to be a better Saint when It comes to serving others. After church was over, I told Brad I wanted to try to visit a few of our fellow church members… both inactive so we ventured to the couple’s place and they were out of town so we drive to the next destination and I got to talk to this person and let them know that I do love them and care for them and that Heavenly Father wants her to come and hear of the words of Christ and be in the church to feel the love and fellowship that we experience only by actually being IN church and IN the meetings. I hope I helped this person feel a little uplifted!
We came back home and Katie went down for her nap! Brad turned on our Wii to watch Netflix and we eventually watched a National Geographic documentary about the human body. We had plans with church friends to go to the walking track this evening and they sent me a text and asked If they could come hang out so they came over for a bit and I got Katie up, fed and we headed to the track! I walked and talked with my friend about weight loss for a long time and I think we covered 3-4 miles walking!!! Then the best part…. I got to RUN with my lovie! Heh. We sprinted last and he has LONG legs so he SHOT way ahead of me… haha!!! Cheater!!! Our friends had to go so they left and we came home where I ate a delicious small sweet potato and ALMOND BUTTER – delish! We’re about to start dinner and hang out! Feels awesome outside, woot.

Gotta get up early and get ready to head to my gyno appointment to GET MY IUD PLACED, WOOOOOOOOO! Also gotta get groceries at some point. So glad that I’m feeling little bit more happiness day by day and IT WILL WILL only get better from here on out – I KNOW IT! I believe it!!!!!! Thankful, grateful and blessed for this day and my life!

Today was pretty simple but can’t complain! I got the house cleaned and took a nap this afternoon and I espically needed it since Brad and I didn’t get to sleep till almost 1:30AM I think? He went to help some church friends – which was so nice of him to just drop everything (we were watching The Office online) and go help them! He enjoyed my “surprise” for him of the pumpkin pie and ice cream and I had put it in the freezer and he had a hard time eating it since It was so cold, lol… whoops! I wasn’t sure how long he’d be gone so I put it in the freezer.
I have the urge to baaaaake or cook stuff so I think I may be experimenting with various recipes to see what I get! I just finished cooking our dinner and I made our bean burgers again except THIS TIME I used a different strategy. Instead of attempting to pan fry them, I baked them in the oven! Also, instead of using whole wheat flour to help keep them together — I used raw OATS! I’m eager to try them out and Brad bought some turkey bacon so I think I’ll put a slice on my burger, yum! I also have the urge to watch ROMANCE! Maybe The Notebook? Ooo I’d really like to see P.S. I Love You again and what a great movie that was! TONIGHT we watch this week’s episode of One Tree Hill! Too bad Bones and Fringe weren’t on because of sports, BOOOO!!!!!!!
Pretty random topics tonight just kindof releasing my thoughts. I’m thankful to have everything that I do and I owe that all to my Heavenly Father. I pray that others may not harden their hearts away from The Gospel and see that it helps all of us live happier lives If we will just follow His commandments and love one another! I know I want to draw closer to The Gospel and to the things that will bring me joy in this life as far as The Gospel goes. I pray that I can get my energy back so I can get my full MOTIVATION back too! Last night I was looking at my pictures on my computer of when I first had Katie. What a MAGICAL time that was.. the feelings I felt and how happy I was during that whole time. Sometimes it seems like just yesterday that It happened and at the same time It feels like a LONG time ago. We are human beings trapped in a time frame and our time goes by so fast. I’m going to cherish today while I have it — we all know we may not have tomorrow. Love the ones you got and help those in need. Sometimes all people need is a smile or hug to make the biggest difference in their lives. We never know how big of an impact a gesture or word might have in one person’s heart or life.

I want my light to shine for others to see to help them to shine their own light too. The light of hope, faith, love, charity and all things good. May God be with you till we meet again! Have a great night and know that God loves you!

It’s the LITTLE THINGS that make me happiest!!! I’ve got things to be EXCITED about and while some other people may not get that excited about these things — they REALLY lift my spirits which is exactly what I’ve been needing with everything that’s happened this year!

OK OK so first up….
1) Monday morning I’m getting a PARAGARD IUD placed again!!!!!! SQUEEEE! Yes I am excited about NON-HORMONAL birth control! I shouldn’t of gotten my other one taken out last November but I was “attempting” to convince myself to have another baby… nope. Still don’t want one and I SURE DON’T want to take hormonal birth control pills so I am SUPER EXCITED!

2) About a month ago? I think? Brad and I were grocery shopping and I was getting my peanut butter and always glance up at the top shelf where the more expensive butters are… including almond butter. I always express how I wish I could buy those but know that we don’t need to spend extra money. Brad had to go buy groceries for us last night and he said he had a surprise for me! Heh… you can guess!

I like it so far… takes some getting used to on the taste buds since I’m used to my Smart Balance PB but I LOVE LOVE all things ALMONDS so I look forward to eating this! I tried some mixed in with my cottage cheese mess this morning and was quite delish! It just matters so much that he thought of me enough to buy it!

3) Now I have a present for Brad tonight! Heh. I always read various “foodie” blogs to get ideas and read about how they incorperate more healthy things into their lives and April always has AWESOME new recipes she comes up with and she posted a very, very simple crustless pumpkin pie so I AUTOMATICALLY wanted to try it!!! I would love to bake more healthy goodies If we had more money for all the ingredients, lol. Anyhow! Here’s my version of her crustless pumpkin pie with my available items….
– 15 oz pure pumpkin
– 1 egg (or 3/4 cup egg whites)
– 3/4 cup fat free milk (or 3/4 cup Unsweetened Almond Milk)
– 1 tablespoon brown sugar (1/2 tsp NuNaturals pure stevia)
– 1/4 cup sugar free maple syrup (or 1/4 cup Torani pumpkin sugar free syrup [optional])
– a little vanilla extract
– 2 cut up hershey kisses
– a few cranberries
– lots of Cinnamon (whoops I actually forgot the cinnamon!)
Here’s how mine turned out!

I’m gonna surprise Brad tonight after dinner with a chunk of this and some of my Blue Bell ice cream on top for dessert for him!!! Heh. I hope he likes it!!! I know he will. =)

4) This might sound corny but I was really happy that Brad picked up some Trop50 orange juice for me last night! I tried this when I first started to lose weight and fell in love with it since It has less carbs and sugar! Ooooh It made me happy with my morning breakfast this morning!

EXTRA boost of Vitamin C for meeeeee! Yes please!

As you can see I’m pretty easy to please! All these things have made today that much brighter and I am so glad for it!!! Bring on the happiness!!!

P.S. > I really want to see the movie Life As We Know It!

what makes you the happiest????