First off………. HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Brad and I had a lovely afternoon/evening yesterday! We watched the movie Daybreakers last night and ate roasted fresh pumpkin seeds. We got up at 5:30AM this morning, got ready then headed out at 6:30AM. He dropped me off at a Wal-Greens near the hospital at about 6:45AM. I dropped off my prescription then roamed the store until it was ready. Afterwards, I sat in a chair near the pharmacy for a long while before browsing the store again until I left at 7:50AM. IT WAS SO COLD OUTSIDE. I walked down to the hospital and my hands were red by the time I got there. I sat out in the lobby until a little after 8AM then went up to the Doc’s office, where I sat in the waiting room a few minutes then went back! Here’s how my morning went:
Came back and they took 5 vials of blood then I drank the fruit punch glucose drink…. it made me feel a little sick after I was done, since it was so sweet. Once done with the drink, they told me to wait 30 minutes then come back. It was 9:50… so I came back at 10:20 and they drew another vial of blood. another 30 minute wait. 10:50… another vial of blood. then they said to wait an hour so 11:50, 12:50, 1:50 then I was finally done! I was poked 5 diff times, well prob 7 in total with 2 “attempt” pokes and they got 9 vials of blood in total, hah. After they took my blood, I left the office and went down to the hospital lobby to eat my serving of honey yogurt then tried to decide what I wanted to do next. My Cousin was gonna pick me up after he got off work but that could be at like 3-4pm. I walked out of the hospital and down the sidewalks by the main road….. it was a little after 2pm and my Cousin called and said he was off work! He came to get me, we went to my Moms where we got Katie then we came home. I gave Katie some meds then put her down for nap…. as she protested. I ate a late lunch then got to sit down for a bit.

SO started my new meds today! It’s weird cause I didn’t think I would have to take Metformin again after I took it in 2006-2007, but I know I’m on my way towards great health again. MY NEW BEGINNING! The meds made my stomach feeling a little uneasy and I kindof expected that…. fine by me! Today started the low calorie diet, too. I ate the yogurt, lunch, little snack, and dinner. I’m probably below 1,000 for today with the almost all day fasting.

We’re laying low tonight…. we don’t have any candy and Katie is still sick so just a chill Halloween. As soon as Katie goes to bed I guess the only “celebrating” we’ll be doing is by watching the latest…….. WALKING DEAD! =)

I can’t believe tomorrow is already HALLOWEEN. Nothing big to spill on about today really. Mom decided it would be better for her to just let Katie spend the night, since Brad and I have to get up at 5:30 and leave by 6:30 in time for him to drop me off and then he can head out towards work. I think I’ll just hang out somewhere until 8 then walk over to the Doc’s office. I asked my Cousin today if he would pick me up after he got off work and he said yes, but it might be after 3pm before he can come get me…. so that’s fine. He’s also gonna take me to pick up my NEWWWWW prescription!

Brad went and dropped Katie off at Mom’s around 5pm or so – we’ve just been hanging out! We watched the movie Daybreakers while eating freshly baked PUMPKIN SEEDS! Brad brought home 2 small pumpkins from his work Friday, heh. It’s really nice to have an afternoon and evening with a quiet house! I’m EXCITED about tomorrow and ready to get the Metformin. Probably gonna take some water and snacks with me for when I get done with the bloodwork & fasting so I can have something to eat.

Tomorrow…… IT BEGINS! I’ll be fasting until the bloodwork is done then starts my low calorie diet and going back to LOW CARB again! It’s gonna be a challenge because I have been eating WAY too much and WAY too many carbs for a while now. Hopefully taking the Metformin will help some of the symptoms. Ready to feel AWESOME again… Ready to have my ENERGY back…. Ready to get hardcore back into my EXERCISE! Looking forward to finally FINALLY…. FINALLY hitting the goal I’ve wanted since 2009…… 130 pounds! I might even reach for 120-125. What have I said all along?! I WILL DO IT. I understand the mistakes I made in 2009 that led to my downfall and then I gave into all cravings, causing my body to completely and utterly MESS UP. When I gave into all this, my PCOS/insulin resistance caused HELL inside me. I’ve been slowly trying to dig my way out of this and with Metformin, exercise, low calorie diet and DETERMINATION……….. I AM………. READY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Taking the Metformin will help encourage me to keep to my low calorie diet, away from temptations and all that. Gotta dig deep and drive that willpower once again.

This is my new beginning. I’m gonna make sure of it.

After having a good appointment Friday and feeling more positive about my health now than ever, I got a little spark to start organizing again! I used to do that really often and it used to be a stress reliever, actually until my health went down. Today mostly consisting of me……. cleaning and organizing!

Along with my usual Saturday cleaning – I also organized the pantry shelves in our laundry room, a few cabinets in our kitchen, our bedroom closet AKA extra bookcase, and washed our bedsheets! We usually go out on Saturdays, but Katie is not feeling well at alllllllllll =( In fact, her cough sounds rough and her nose was runny throughout the day. She ate breakfast, watched some movies, but would not eat lunch since I know her throat hurts. She has drank plenty of fluids tho so that is good. She also didn’t touch her dinner but drank more fluids. We gave her some medicine before nap and bed… she slept around 3 hours for nap and then we put her back to bed at 9. I really hope she feels better soon. She was still playing with her toys a bit this evening, so I know she’s not TOO bad. I know she’s been so sick before that she wouldn’t even play or hardly move. We won’t be going to church in the morning of course since Katie just needs to stay home and rest.

I “seem” to be doing better sickness wise…. atleast I hope! My nose has been a little runny a few times today and my head was hurting moreso this morning and right now I feel good, well except my teeth are bothering me but yeah. Brad said he might be starting to come down with it. Hopefully not!!! We gotta get our plans straight tomorrow for MONDAY so I can get back to the Doc and get my testing all done and situated.

Time to sit back, catch up online and watch more Secret Life! =)

Ok seriously. I have had an awesome day!!! I got up like usual with Brad… he got ready and left for work. I fiddled online then eventually started to get things together and the stroller set up for Katie. I called Mom before I went to get Katie up so she would know we were on our way shortly. We both bundled up, but it wasn’t as cold outside as I thought it was. I dropped Katie off and had to HURRY to walk back in time so that I could get back before my church friend arrived… and JUST as I came in my door she called me and said she was about to pull up, LOL!

Long story short……. the address I got online was WRONG. It was the old address so my church friend dropped me off and THEN I found out I was at the wrong place so I had to call her and tell her to come back, lol. We had to go out of our way a bit to get to where we needed to go and I called the office to let them know. Said friend dropped me off….. again, lol this time in the RIGHT place. It was a big building and I had to go to the 2nd floor but found the suite right away. There were quite a few people in the waiting room and I filled out paper work and I’d say I had to wait like an hour and 15 minutes total? But it’s a speciality clinic so that’s to be expected, really. I went back and the nurse listened to my breathing, took my blood pressure both sitting down and after standing up and took my blood sugar….. which was 73. It was lower since I had not eaten anything. I didn’t eat just incase they wanted to take fasting blood levels. I had to wait another…. 10 minutes or so for a room to open up but the Doc saw me right then! He was GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I showed him my past bloodwork, told him a summary of my WHOOOOOLE story and told him I felt like I should go back on Metformin like I had been back in 2006-07 and he said YES, that he was going to put me on Metformin 3 times a day! That’s more than the last time I took it! I was on 1,000mg back then and this time it’s going to be 1,500mg. I’M STOKED because it helped me so much last time! I got the prescription for the meds but can’t start until after my labwork that I am GETTING MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Guess what? I come in EARLY Monday morning for the 5 HOUR fasting glucose testing….. man, I only had to do 3 hours when I was pregnant and they were testing for gestional diabetes! THEN, they are going to take…… wait for it….. EIGHT vials of blood! Holy WOW. Again, that’s MORE than they took when I found out I was pregnant! The most I got taken was six. I told the Doc that I just wanted to feel good again and he said he would get to the bottom of it.

DO YOU KNOW HOW LONG I HAVE WAITED TO HEAR THAT?!!!!!!!! =) To FINALLY have a Doctor not QUESTION my symptoms because he knew EXACTLY what I was TALKING ABOUT. Also, he ordered an ultrasound of my ovaries so I’ll have to go to another nearby hospital (when they call me & not sure which day that will be or when ill have to go) and that’ll give the Doc an idea of how my ovaries are doing by LOOKING at them. My appointment this morning was at 9:30AM but I didn’t go back until…… 11:40? I think? I felt so bad because my church friend had both of her babies with her and they were getting tired and restless. She parked at a nearby bank so I walked up to them once I was done with my appointment. She had to make a stop at the vet then dropped me off at home.

I’m still trying to figure out how I’m gonna get to my Monday EARLY morning appointment… they want me there at 8:15AM and of course I’ll be there for five hours. My church friend said she couldn’t do that early with the babies and I’m not gonna ask my other church friend because she has 2 babies too. Mom’s car isn’t in good enough shape to get me there…… so the only other option is for Brad to take me super super early up there and then he can go on to work and I can just wait somewhere until my appointment. Unless something else comes up this weekend so I could have another way there. We’ll see. I JUST CAN’T WAIT TO GO. I’m ready to start the Metformin! The Doc told me to start a low calorie diet once I start taking the Metformin so once I start those meds I’m gonna be STRICT AGAIN.. except KEEP THE GOOD FATS!

I was so excited when I got home I was nearly shaking, lol. The THOUGHT of feeling good again completely?! This is it. I finally have the stepping stones towards getting my health back on track. I’m so thankful. SO… I came home, was STARVING (of course) so I quickly started some lunch, called Mom….. told her the story, then Brad called me and I told him. I ate lunch, fiddled online, started some laundry, washed dishes, watched an episode of SECRET LIFE and then I got to just sit and SING!!!!!!!!!!!! I haven’t got to do that in a long time without having to worry about SOMETHING. but TODAY! for the first time in a long while…. I was HOME ALONE! and after the AWESOME NEWS I got this morning, I felt satisfied. When I talked to Mom, she said Katie had been really good so far. Eventually, Brad came home and we loaded up to start out for groceries!!!!!! We got our usual Friday routine done and came back to Mom’s to pick Katie up. It’s been raining off/on since Brad came home and has really cooled off a bit more as well.

I’m just so excited I could burst!!!!!!!!!!!! Doc said that I will take the meds for 4 weeks and then return for another appointment to see how things are and if it’s still not working or not enough then he said he’ll see what needs to change! I have a smile on my face tonight! Time to catch up online then I think I’ll watch another (rerun!) episode of Secret Life!

Tomorrow morning I FINALLY go to the Endo Doctor!!!!!!! PLEASE pray that I get the answers I have been waiting for since early 2010. I’m thinking about this in a positive way and am hoping and praying for the best. It’s supposed to be COOOOLD tomorrow morning, like in the breezy 50’s so I’m bundling myself and Katie up then putting her in the stroller and walking over to Mom’s so she can hang out with her while I go to the Doc’s. I’ll walk back home and my church friend is coming to get me at 9AM and my appointment is at 9:30AM and I have a feeling it’s going to take a while. I’ve got my bloodwork from my last Doc’s appointment printed off plus my bloodwork from last year so they can see it. I’m as ready as I can be.

As far as today… I haven’t had a fever ALL DAY!!!!!! I got up this morning, took some cold tablets then went back to sleep and actually slept in LONGER than I usually do… woops. I felt a good deal better tho, but of course woke up sweating again. My biggest issue today has been headache pain, but only when I bend down or exert myself. I took some excedrin earlier and that seemed to help. I’ve felt pretty out of it all day, including right now. It was SOOOOOOOO pretty today and felt wonderful when I opened the patio door to let Katie play on the porch this morning.

I just finished some yogurt for dessert and won’t eat anything else for my Doc appointment in the morning since I would like for them to test my fasting glucose levels. I’m READY to feel really GOOD again. I’m READY to exercise and feel those good endorphins again that I haven’t felt in FOREVER even though I have tried and tried and tried. I’m READY TO LOSE WEIGHT again… for my body to be in FAT BURNING mode instead of fat STORING mode.

Just holding onto hope! Wish me luck.

My fever has been up and down all day! =( I did not sleep well last night. I kept waking up and was hot from sweating off the fever. The highest it got today was almost 103… =( and the lowest was 99. I just took some meds not long ago and am currently sweating again. When I woke up this morning, both sides of my throat were swollen and it hurt so bad to swallow. Plus it hurts my ears. Now it’s mostly just my left side but it’s not as bad right now, thank goodness.

I try to rest when I can, but there’s always something I need to be doing. Same routine as yesterday… college work while Katie played on the porch then set her up with a movie. I was FREEZING and a little pale so I took a hot bath then watched Secret Life on my phone and tried to take it easy. Not sure if the Endo will give me anything for this sickness, but we’ll see Friday. I took a long nap this afternoon and woke up in a sweat again, thanks to the fever.

Just finished watching the latest Biggest Loser! Got a little more to do with college then I might watch another episode of Secret Life before bed. I hope I can get some rest. Pleassse let me feel somewhat better in the morning…… please please please.

I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck !!!!!!!!!! Katie’s had a cold since last week, I think. Or atleast she had started sneezing more then. Anyhow, I woke up today with the right side of my throat swollen, body aches, chills, feverish, slight headache, general BLAAAAH feeling. It SUCKS. Since early 2010, my immune system has not been good and whenever Katie gets sick, I more than likely get it too. Katie is sneezing, has a few random coughs and is sniffly – but other than that, she is still hyper girl. She doesn’t act sick, haha.

I worked on college stuff this morning, let Katie play on the porch, then eventually watch a movie while I curled up and watched 2 episodes of Secret Life, since there was NO WAY I was going to exercise. Also, my church friend IS going to take me to my Doc’s appointment Friday morning!!! I just hope I feel better by then. She has a baby boy who is only a few months old, so if I am still sick then I will have to stay away from him… and her little girl. I’m gonna walk Katie over to Mom’s early Friday because it might be a long time and she would get antsy and etc.

Ugh…… I feel like crap!! Just took some more meds and am starting to get cold chills again. I have got to get my health back in order. I’m tired of being TIRED and tired of getting sick so easily!!!!!! I have been sick more in 2010-2011 than I have ever been. Roll on Friday. Ready ready ready.

After Katie goes to bed, we’re gonna watch the latest WALKING DEAD episode! Speaking of, I found out they got picked up for a THIRD season already!!!!!! REALLY popular show!

Happy Monday!

My day consisted of: starting on work for my new college course, walking on the treadmill, trying out my new Boca chicken patty (it was good!), load of laundry, watched a bit of The Doctors reruns from last week…

I’m glad that all 3 of us are making time to spend together for dinner. Brad helps me cook dinner then we all eat together. Katie still wants to sit and fiddle with her food instead of eating it and then because she was playing with it, she knocked her bowl off onto the floor. Brad told her since she was playing with her food that she would have to go in her high chair. Thankfully, she ate. It’s nice to just sit down and talk with Brad too while we eat. We went into Katie’s room afterwards and Brad dozed off in Katie’s rocking chair…. haha. He’s still dozing right now, except on the couch. I spent some one-on-one time with Katie in her room and I’m glad Brad was atleast there as well.

I really miss my best friends that I used to be so close to. One of my friends won’t reply to me! =( I sent a text to this person today and no reply…. I don’t know what happened, we used to be so close and this person seems to have changed so much. *sigh*

Anyhow, as soon as Katie goes to bed we’re gonna watch the latest DEXTER!!!!!! Was waiting to see if the latest eppy of The Walking Dead was gonna be available through AMC online but so far it hasn’t…. hm. I can’t wait to see it.

Excellent day!!! Church was great. The kiddos had their yearly Primary program and after that was over and we had class, then onto the last hour of church…. they got to watch a movie and have juice, pretzels and lollipops. They LOVED it, of course. In class, I taught about Peter the Apostle and the power of testimony. We had to HURRY off after church, since we were meeting FAMILY at Golden Corral for lunch. I got to see some of my family I haven’t seen since….. my High School graduation I think?! It’s been a long time. Everyone HAD A BLAST. Especially my Uncle and Katie, LOL. My Uncle is a goof. =) We talked, ate, and hung out for a while longer then the family had to get back on the road towards their home…… they had a SIX hour drive, sheesh! I’m soooooo glad that they got to come see me, Brad, Katie & my Mom, Aunt and Cousin. I had a bit of this and that at the buffet and it was awesome. I don’t usually stray too far from my usual healthy stuff, but this was deffo a treat for me and Brad both.

The rest of the day has been great too. Katie went down for a nap and then played after she got up and had her snack. I cut Brad’s hair! And found out I made a 100% on my final paper for my current college class, WOOT!!!!!!!!!

This week: Starting a new college course, might be going to the park to meet up with girls from church, and Friday is (FINALLY) MY DOCTOR’S APPOINTMENT that I cannot WAIT to go to and see about getting my health straight.

Anyhow, I’m gonna grab some yogurt for dessert and we’re currently watching INCEPTION!!!!! Brad just put Katie down for the night so we’re ready to relllllllllax! SO very thankful, grateful, and blessed. Always.

Short entry since I’m feeling blah.
-Mom watched Katie from about 3pm till tonight
-We walked to a nearby Festival
-Also stopped into the Library real quick
-Walked back to car
-Went to Goodwill for a bit

And we’re home. I’m gonna get a shower, relax, and watch more reruns of Secret Life.

*sigh*