Sooooo. We’re coming to a point where money is a real struggle again. We’ve been through it before and I think I mentioned this a couple of posts back, but seems we keep hitting these struggles. It’s okay, I’m not gonna worry over money. I learned not to when I changed my life in 2009. Why worry over money when you can’t change the situation at the moment? Noope, it does NO good.

I worked on college today and just spent a lot of time pondering about my health.

How can I get my MOOD better with this going on with my thyroid? How can I lose weight again? It seems my body is sensative to sugar, fiber, and carbs. Of course too much food isn’t good either and I seem to have gotten into a pattern of wanting to constantly get something. Well, we’re really getting scarce on food anyway, so I guess that’s one way to get me to cut down.

I want to FIX THIS more than EVERRRRRRRRR. I just don’t know how. So far the natural thyroid meds I’ve been taking for over a week haven’t done anything for me. I know, I know…. it may takes weeks or more for it to really work, but then again I may need to be on a MUCH HIGHER dose to see results, but I don’t go back to the Doc until late January.

I don’t know. I wish I knew. I’ll just keep doing what I’ve been doing…… researching and MORE researching. Digging through every kind of information I can about Hashimoto’s disease and underactive thyroid. GRRRRR, I am determined. My strength and endurance exercise-wise is PATHETIC. I’ve lost so much of what I had. Just need to KICK MY BUTT, but I just get so tired after trying to work out or feel weak and get pale. Sigh……

I suppose I’ll check a few more sites online then read a bit more of my college history book. Hope everyone has a great night.

Mmm… I’m eating some rice with a side of HOT CHOCOLATE and I feel GOOD.

Well. We didn’t get any snow today. Just RAIN and cold, boo. Today was pretty much a repeat of yesterday: reading college history material, hanging out, but today I took a nice nap. Right before my nap, I ate a bowl of hot veggie soup with seaweed and it was delish.

I also researched more about a low thyroid function in relation to prolonged dieting. So, here’s what happened to me. I lost weight in 2009 through healthier choices and lowered my caloric intake, BUT I didn’t have cheat days later into the year and I never changed my calories. Kept on and on until I saw symptoms of early hypothyroidism (August 2009, but didn’t know it was hypothyroidism at the time) and then in Dec 09, my weight loss was starting to stall…. yet I still kept doing the same thing. On and on and on. I clearly experienced HYPERthyroidism early 2010 since I all-of-a-sudden had this incredible energy yadda yadda from around January 2010 until sometime in March 2010 then everything went to hell. I kept going until I finally gave into ALL AND EVERY craving then started binge eating and my metabolism and thyroid had been BEATEN to death, lowering my thyroid function. I’ve been in that circle since all this went down. I gotta give my body enough food, but be CAREFUL of what I eat since my digestion is not the best nowadays. If I want to get my metabolism and thyroid back in action for weight loss, I’ve got to be soooooo CAREFUL!

Just gotta work at it. Anyhow, Brad is about to put Katie to bed and we’re gonna watch the latest DEXTER episode and I already know the twist lol I always spoil it for myself, but that’s ok haha. =)

Today I’ve mostly been reading more of my History book for my college assignment this week and I’m really enjoying it!! Reading about how agriculture got started in the world and just got done reading about how agriculture started in the Chinese dynasties.

It got cold REAL fast as the day went on. In fact, Brad just turned on the heater so we can stay nice and warm tonight and into tomorrow morning, since it is supposed to be really cold in the morning and the possible snoooow is gonna start early morning. I hope I get to see the snow flurries!

Baaaah, I have nothing to say. I had been doing so well with not eating carbs since Thursday, but I ruined that today. That’s alright. I’ll get back on track.

I’m soooooo excited to watch the latest Walking Dead and DEXTER! Already know the surprises lol but still excited to see them. Walking Dead coming right up…….. and also eating on a yummy tangerine!

This will be short, since bed is REALLY SOON.
FIRST. Mom is okay! She’s in a lot of pain from her arthiritis (sp?) and has an appointment for her Doc tomorrow, so hopefully she can get that taken care of. She went to the ER because she was in so much pain from it and they got her heartrate and blood pressure down.

WOOT. Just watched the movie FAST FIIIIIVE! I love The Fast and Furious movies.

Went to church and had a good time and the temp outside has been sooooooo wonderful, so when we got home I opened up the windows to let some fresh air in and let Katie play on the porch while I read material for college. Katie went down for nap and I read some more until I kept drifting off to sleep…. know what comes next? Nap!!! It was really nice.

Later, we ate dinner and started watching Fast Five then Katie went to bed and I baked another crustless pumpkin pie, yum yum. Movie was awesome and I am ready for more sleeeeeeeeep. The temp is gonna drop drop drop and it’s only supposed to be 55 tomorro with rain, BOO. It’s currently 63 and we had rain earlier, but not at the moment. Contemplating where I wanna put our Christmas tree. I didn’t decorate last year, since I was in a terrible, terrible mood and I’m *very* slowly getting a LITTLE better. Trying to be more in the spirit of holidays!

Anywho! Thankful for another day that my Heavenly Father has given me. Always!! Have a great night ;D

…… I have sad, sad news.

Our chinchilla Rocko started acting a little off last weekend, but I didn’t think much of it. This last week he wasn’t eating or drinking as much so I kept an eye on him. I got up today to find him just laying around, not moving much. I tried to pick him up and he didn’t really respond to my touch as much as he usually does. Not good. He only went downhill and passed away a few hours later. I’m heartbroken. We got Rocko January 27th, 2006 and we didn’t expect to buy a chinchilla that day, but we did! HE WAS SO TINY!!!!!!! It took me forever to come up with his name. I already miss him. The house is even quieter without his random noises and running around his cage. He was our little buddy. I’ve never had a rodent live almost 6 years!!! He had a good life. A big cage, plenty of food, water, and toys. He LOVED to be rubbed under his chin and on his face. He was an awesome pet. I wrapped him in one of my old tank tops and we put him in a little box and buried him outside and put a rock to mark his little grave. RIP Rocko… I love you more than you know.

More not-so-good news. I called Mom earlier today to tell her about Rocko and she said she wasn’t doing so good herself. Apparently, the chest pain she had like 2 weeks ago never went away and she said her pulse rate got up to 200 or so today and her usual heart meds for her blood pressure was not helping to bring it down. My Cousin called a bit ago to say that he took her to the ER…… it’s gonna be a long night.

What a day. We kept Rocko on our little table in his big cage in the laundry room. Well, for the first time since we lived in the duplex, back in…. 2006-2007, we used that little table as an ACTUAL table. we all 3 sat at the table and had dinner. It reminded me of Rocko.

Brad and I were talking tonight about possibly making some pretty big life changes. After losing Rocko today and Mom having big health problems and now in the ER, I feel some changes coming. Just gotta hold on.

Anyone get any good deals today?

This morning I put on laundry and ate some breakfast! Brad washed the dishes…. I was super stoked he did. I did a 10 minute workout on the Wii Active then got on the treadmill at a very brisk pace for 40ish minutes while watching a Secret Life rerun and actually got a pretty good sweat. Also felt pretty queasy afterwards and we were low on food, so I fixed a can of cream corn to eat while I soaked in the tub and IT WAS YUM. I had to try to come up with various food ideas the rest of the day.

We went out this evening while Katie was at my Mom’s. We originally had planned on only shopping at Wal-Mart, since we’re tight on money BUT Wal-Mart didn’t have any almond butter so off to Whole Foods!!! We bought a few things there and had health bars for dinner, lol. We came back to my Moms and she gave Brad and I some of the leftover jello salad she made for Thanksgiving…. it was delish. We went over to my Aunts for a few to look through her DVDs to see if we wanted to borrow any and now we have a whole stack of DVDs, lol. Awwww and my Aunt feeds a whole bunch of KITTIES outside and there are 2 little ones that are so cute. Brad badly wants a kitty but no thanks!!

I nibbled on a fruit bar that I bought (only 14 cals!) and a little almond butter- that was so good. We were trying to decide which movie to watch, but still not sure. I actually feel pretty good tonight, except a little tired.

Posting this then catching up online! :] Have a greeaaaaaaat night!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I called my Mom this morning to wish her a happy one, and she said my Aunt and Cousin were coming over to her house to have some fried chicken, lima beans, shell salad and this jello salad but Brad and I decided to do our own healthy Thanksgiving!

Brad got a shower then we all headed out to Wal-Mart to get our food. We bought a smaller portion Butterball Turkey Breast, fresh green beans, a yellow squash, and stuff to make my healthy HOMEMADE crustless chocolate pumpkin pie! WOOT. Of course Wal-Mart was getting ready to start the Black Friday sales for tonight so stuff was everywhere. We came home and watched the Biggest Loser: Thanksgiving Special and I would stop and go cook a little. Turkey was in the oven! About 6:15pm I started the sides… boiled my eggs so I could make deviled eggs + cut up my squash and prepped the fresh green beans. Got the eggs all ready and put in the fridge to cool off. I put some olive oil in with the green beans & squash then Brad had the idea to squeeze fresh lemon juice into it. Turned out to be AMAZING!!!!!!!! The turkey was moist, the eggs were a little too mustard-ish (but good!), and the sauteed green bean/squash was DELISH.

I’m eating the rest of my pie at the moment and it turned out pretty good, except I put too much cocoa powder into it, but otherwise YUM! The WHOLE pie is only around ~270ish calories. Isn’t that EPIC? I got the recipe from one of the foodie bloggers I follow. In fact, I made the same thing (a little different) last October!

I think I’m actually lacking a bit in calories for today, but that’s fine considering I’ve been eating way too much for a long while now. I’m getting back on track calorie-wise and fitness wise! I ate lots of eggs today, lol since we didn’t have much else. I ate 2 protein bars this evening since we were out and about…. they were SO GOOD. I’m going for simple, delish foods.

I’m so glad we had our own Thanksgiving dinner! I’m thankful for so much. Thankful for my Heavenly Father. Thankful for life. Thankful for my handsome husband and our daughter. Thankful for our church. Thankful for our home and food. Thankful for another Thanksgiving……. hope you and your family have had a great one!

GOBBLE GOBBLE !!!!!!!!!!! I’m thankful we had a HEALTHY Thanksgiving! I wouldn’t want it any other way! ;D Especially with trying to get back to where I was AND I WILL DAMNIT, I WILL!!!!!!!!!! =)

First up…. I called the Doc’s office this morning and apparently some of the people for some reason thought I didn’t come in for my appointment Monday to get my results, so that was what they were calling about- was to give me the results? Lol. Shew. I was kindof worried!!!

Secondly….. today was Brad’s last day of work until Monday, woot woot.

Third…… now that I know about my underactive thyroid, I have KNOWLEDGE and that has steered me towards foods that I need to eat and avoid to help my situation. My problem might also be an intolerance for gluten, so I am cutting out grains (FOR NOW) since I’ve read most patients with underactive thyroids have a gluten intolerance. I don’t have the money to get the gluten tolerance test so I’m gonna cut grains and give it a try to see what happens. I’ve got a whole new food list and am stepping forward to a new outlook at all this. I’m gonna take control of my food intake, PORTION control, and smash this condition!!!!! Turns out, the majority of my regular food intake has been hindering my thyroid function. Yikes….

I’m still not sure what we’re gonna do for Thanksgiving, but I am thankful. For soooooooo many things.

So…… Tuesday.
I’ve felt a bit queasy off and on today, so that sucks. Wish I had something interesting to post about…… but unfortunately, I do not.

Worked on college.
Did a little exercise on the bike.
Watched an episode of Secret Life.
We watched the latest FRINGE earlier and after Katie goes to bed = LATEST DEXTER!

I did get a call this afternoon from my Endo’s office, but I missed the call and they left a message saying they wanted me to call them back regarding my lab results. ?????? I was just there yesterday? What could it be? They were closed when I tried to call back, so I’ll call after I get up tomorrow morning. Gaaaaaah, but I’m just racking my brain trying to figure out what else they would want to say.

Dun dun dun…..

I FINALLY HAVE SOME ANSWERS TO MY HEALTH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I got up this morning, fed Katie, got her ready, and then strolled her over to Mom’s about 10:30am or so + got to hang out with them for about 30 minutes before walking back home to get ready for my church friend to pick me up. She arrived right around 11:45am and we were off. I had a pretty long wait at the Doc’s office, but I expected that. I was so anxious! Eventually got called back, weighed, etcetc then put in a room to anxiously wait more. Finally the Doc came in!!! He had my lab work and was writing stuff down and I’m thinking AAAH, what are you writing?!! I wanna know!

So, here’s the dealio. Everything looks okay on my bloodwork, EXCEPT my thyroid levels are a little low and the antibodies are attacking my thyroid! He put me on Armour thyroid meds to get those levels boosted up and I took one tonight and already feel a little different. We’ll see. I’m just soooooo happy I finally have concrete answers after suffering significantly since early 2010. I WILL HAVE ENERGY AGAIN, WOOOOOOOOOT. I can lose weight again! Sleep REALLY WELL again!

Anyhow, my church friend took me home then I called Mom and walked over to get Katie. We came home, she went down for nap, and then this evening after Brad got home we went to the store to get my meds and some chicken for Katie’s dinners.

We’re gonna watch THE WALKING DEAD! =)