Well, I didn’t have any grains yesterday and really started to feel bad in the evening, but I ate too much fruit/protein pudding too close to bed time and ugh – it really messes my gut up. Then I think back to a few weeks ago. I was feeling BETTER. Mood was better, gut was getting better, and my weight / body fat was starting to balance and go down bit by bit. What made that possible?

Yes, I was eating gluten-free grains, but not *too* much of them and I was waiting about 2 hours between meals and I could tell it was working because my digestion and elimination were synced better, if you know what I mean. What happened? Well, first of all BIG STRESS happened and threw my body for a loop then I had the idea to ramp up the carbs and then started eating way too many rice cakes. Was not allowing enough time for digestion because the big stress made it where I needed more than 2 hours to digest and then it all just sits in my gut (ick) and makes me feel out of it because toxins and crap are being absorbed, instead of eliminated.

I went cold turkey and got rid of the grains and that’s why I felt so bad. Was too extreme and it causes back pain and a burning sensation in my abdomen (which all has to do with my GUT problems), not to mention my mood goes to blah and I just want to do nothing. HATE IT. I’m gonna eat what I was eating when I was starting to feel better and WILL NOT CHANGE ANYTHING until I am better. I KNOW it was working, but I need to keep the stress very low and the food consistent. When my gut is calm and balanced then my thyroid medicine and nutrients can absorb better, which leads to lots of improvements. However, it is a VERY VERY FRAGILE balance.

SO – Keep the carbs to a lower amount, but enough to help give me a little boost that I need for digestion and mood (serotonin!). [There IS a big connection between the gut and brain (mood). That’s why when my gut takes a nosedive, so does my happiness & interests] Allow enough time between meals for better digestion. QUIT CHANGING IT UP, KEEP IT CONSISTENT SO MY BODY CAN STAY STEADY. Seems if I keep my meals really simple (like only 2-3 diff foods, versus 5-6) then my body has an easier time and of course foods that are softer just help digestion too. *sigh* I do not wish this on my worst enemy. I can FOR SURE SAY THAT GUT HEALTH IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN THE WORLD because without a healthy gut I cannot get my thyroid function back up to speed, but they both go hand-in-hand – just like the whole body is connected. It’s one big confusing puzzle to try to figure out, but I’m getting there.

Just praying for healing and to get back to feeling good like I was a few weeks ago, but STAYING that way!!! That will be my dream come true, literally – because there is so much I want to do, but this impairs my health so much that I just do not feel well, mentally or physically and my body is just seeming to tell me “rest rest rest” and so I’m trying to listen because in 2010 and maybe even part of 2011 i kept PUSHING PUSHING and trying to do everything, even with my health imbalances and it only made me worse. I will overcome!!!!!!!

I know my experiences – esp with thyroid and gut will be very valuable when I start my career of helping people with their health / fitness / food!!! That’s all I want to do… motivate, inspire, and give all my knowledge and information out to others who are struggling too. <3 I am soooo passionate about it <3