It’s been an okay Wednesday I guess. Nothing special today! Katie and I hung out at home.. same ole same ole. I got a shower after Katie went down for her nap then I took a nap too. This evening I watched the newest episode of Secret Life.

Of course now I’m on the candida diet. Well, since yesterday. Boy. See, throughout this whole CRAP-fest I’ve been in since last April- I’ve had times where I would try to cut things out of my diet but not completely to the certain candida diet BUT anytime I would cut certain things out… made me feel TERRIBLE. I have LOOOOOOTS of willpower when it comes to cutting out foods. HELLO I lost 76 pounds in 2009 all by myself! but this is a DIFFERENT kind of terrible feeling… i can’t even explain it. I guess just to say I feel SERIOUSLY deprived until I eat lots of carbs, fats and sugar but even after I eat those, I don’t feel significently better… just a very, very, very, very slight comforter. I woke up with a slightly sore throat this morning… GREAT! Since I decided to switch to this diet yesterday, there’s a LOT in the house food-wise that goes to Brad now, lol. I told him he better eat the strawberries since I don’t want them to go to waste!!! I just wish I had a stright up ANSWER to what is going on with my body. If I am right with the candida then I feel so terrible because the fungus/bacteria or whatever is in my body LIVES off the carbs/sugars so THAT is what it wants and that’s what I feel that way. Apparently if I stick STRICTLY to this diet for a few weeks then those symptoms are supposed to diminish slowly. Great… I guess I get to live in even more torture! If I can get better from doing so THEN I WILL. I WILL LIVE OFF THIS DIET UNTIL I AM BETTER.

Anyway. Brad is waiting on me to come to bed so off I go… thankful for my life and my Heavenly Father. I gotta give this diet a shot and ride it out. I don’t really have any other choice at this point. I have to try something.