Deffo need a change in my life.

Mom goes to the Doc tomorrow morning and is gonna ask her Doc if he knows anything about PCOS/insulin and if he does, then she’s gonna see about getting an appointment for me!! If not, then I’ll schedule an appointment for late Oct with the Endo I talked to recently. I’m gonna take care of my health and THEN I NEED A JOB. I have never worked out of the home and Mom has said she will watch Katie… but if she gets sick (Mom) then I would have to get someone else – which we’ll deal with that when/if it happens. If I had a job, I would have so many opportunities as far as friends and getting out more! Katie is really getting an attitude with us at home… I know it’s because she’s so isolated with me all day and we’re just feeding off of each others stress.

Take care of my health > Get a job > GET A REAL LIFE! > Get my college degree > LIVE MY PASSION

Who knows what else may come up in all that!!! I’m just ready to feel good health wise again. I’m also ready to feel “alive” and not just stressed all the time at home with Katie. Years ago I was not ready to venture out into the world….. then I lost weight, changed my life, changed my thoughts, changed everything and was ready to get out but I didn’t have a babysitter for Katie. We moved here and Mom knew that she might not be able to watch Katie as often as she’d like because of her health, but she said since Katie is doing more by herself, she should be no problem to watch since my Mom won’t have to do as much as far as using a lot of energy since she gets tired very easily.

Anyhow. Today I mostly laid around, did some college work….. more stress with Katie. Usual.

I was ready to go this afternoon to walk to Mom’s house!!!!!! YES! We sat on her porch for a bit then came inside and talked up a storm! ;D OH and she gave me a desk lamp, yay!!!! And also gave me some of the Disney movies (that were mine as a kid) to let Katie watch! Including my fav……. THE LION KING!

I’m just SO READY to get my health better so I can go forward with my life. It is beyond time for me to get out of this house and be the WOMAN I wanna be!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m excited to see what the future holds!