It was so gloomy and chilly out today. We were going to go to the church conference but Brad brought up the fact that we really don’t need to be spending money on gas to travel out there so we decided to stay home instead.

Instead I’ve had a boring, irritating day. Oh but we are cooking our first turkey right now. Our church was great enough to give us a ‘turkey basket’ this Thanksgiving so we will have lots of turkey to eat which will help us on food. Katie has also been mostly whiney so It was another Mommys-glad-baby-is-going-to-bed moment tonight. Was hoping to get Brad to help me dye my hair since my roots are showing from when he helped me highlight my hair a few months ago but we may or may not do it tonight but I’m ready to go back to one color instead of a few, haha.

What else? Oh, you know. Doing the housewife chores like I do. Every. Single. Day. Washed, dryed and folded a load of laundry then eventually put that away. Washed dishes atleast 3 maybe 4 times today. Picked up Katie’s toys two different times off the floor like usual. *sigh* Sometimes I just get so overwhelmed with having to do 24/7 Mommy and housewife duties. Oh well, no use in complaining because that’s what I do, right? Yeah. Sometimes I miss those days where I could just play video games all day.. stay up till 3 in the morning and then sleep till 3 in the afternoon but then I think back on those times and how miserable I was because I said at the time I had no life.

We are never satisfied as human beings are we? I’m satisfied now but just overwhelmed. And guess what? It sucks.. but guess what else? Even though I feel a lot on my shoulders right now I am thankful for my life and everything that comes with it and I will be strong. What I think I really lack is HUMAN interaction. I have Katie. She can’t talk so all I get all day 7 days a week from her is babble. I need a true, close best friend again. I think that’s what would make the difference.